it's getting harder and harder to hold back her tears

haha, nowadays.. its getting so easy to make me cry.. n it seems that de onli way for my to stay dry de next day was to make sure i empty de bucket of tears i hold inside de night bef. anw, thanks for tat email my woman.. it was enlightenin i guess...

When there is nothing left but God, that is when you find out that God is all you need.

n its really cold nowwwwwww.... brgghhh~

anw, tat day i was on tis train.. starin at tis little boy becos he was starin at me. haha~ i won. muahas~ cos he looked down.. i guess i looked really fierce. who ask him stare. anw.. when i was busy starin tis woman actu pointed to my wallet n says: nice bag. den i was like huh? so which one u tokin bout? my wallet or bag? lol~ anw was too shocked.

went to work tat day. soooo sian dat i wasnt doin vip. but. de auntie was super zai. we actu finished at round de same time as de vip... but obviously i had to do so much work i almost died. haha~ went for supper at 85 aft tat. im growin fatter each day manx. tis is irritatin manx... should stop suppering.

den went to my grans hse to camp de next two days.. went to suntec wid her n reanne ytd.. i was super fed up cos grans was like: are we dere yet? why are we walkin here? why we walking so far? waaaaaaa.. i almost screamed at her. LOL~ pampered cannn. anw, bought 25bucks worth of ice cream from couz.


tooo tired to tink.

super tired. my main pt in comin here to blog now, n not sleeping: is to tell everyone readin me blog, tat im terribly depressed tat i couldnt get a pair of heels at charles n keith. n hoping tat someone aft readin my blog, will be soooooo nice to buy me it. haha~ well tis is wad u get when u hav a angel in serious lack of sleep. going crazyyy soon! i wannnn de shoessssss... man, can someone hav some pity on me haha~ i promise i'll wear it every single day! n angel don normally wear heels oneeeee!!! actu, today i jus realise my shoes have been irritatin my mum, cos they took up de whole shoe rack! leaving. no space to put their shoes.. so i mentally counted, i tink i have round 15 pairs of shoes?? lol~ mayb if i sell them i'll get enof monee to buy my heels.. tis is really depressing. cant stop tinking bout u. jus so perfect in every single way possible.. aft being wid u for one min i cant help but tink we're made for each other. heels oh heels, i love you. LOL~ i tink i need to sleep now.

one random day angel went to her grandma house, haha~ n offered to cook dinner. actu not veri random, i always go her house. lol~ no lah.. we went to de hospital at 8 n i had to wake up at 6, cos her house is like at amk. anw. went to de hospital half dead, n saw tis wallet on de floor. so me, being de veri nice me, haha~ went over n pick it up. pretend nth happened! haha kiddin. i hand it over to de counter. den my grandma was like: why ret. see got monee first wadd.. LOL. anw back to my dinner. so we went to de market early in de morning de next day, me feelin like a fully certified auntie, bought some fish, eggs, tomats, n potatoes.. oh ya, n pork haha~ to make pork chop for lunch! it was sooooo hard choppin de potatoes into nice equal strips plss. i took bout 1hr? tryin to jus cut up 4 potatoes. not to mention times when my hand feels like its on de verge of cramping. LOL~ lousy ryt. anw, love going to my grandma's house. cos of them:

they are the ultimate love of my life!


anw, im really lazy to blog bout my bday n yl's. haha~ mayb some other times.. lots of pics lah. wahahas.

thanks for everythin(:

IM BACK!!!! oh man bangkok is so fun. actu is made fun by my travel mates: ying david darren n jeremy, who are veri funny ppl. so really wanna thank them for being in bkk wid me! LOVESS.

once we touch down we rushed to chatuchak n shop without even eating. lol, everythin was really uber cheap n all we do once we entered de shop is to ask: wholesale? haha~ de guys n us split up den ying n i bought so much things n was moving so fast we started to get really giddy. in de end we sat down at some roadside n started whining to each other cos we cant find the bts. haha~ had really great food at nite n super satisfied wid de shopping!!!! nnnnnnnnnnnn. got our first thai massage! haha super excited. kept laughin n laughin cos super ticklish n painful.


de next day we went to pratunum n platinum mall if im not wrong. de shoppin is much more ex dere. haha~ anw. saw tis suspicious lookin bag n i actu ask them to move away frm black canyon coffee( place where we always meet up) anw. at nite we went to patpong! their red light district! haha~ an interestin experience. they keep askin de guys go see thai girls show. n that david go n waved to tis tranee. haha~ den we also went to de gay part of patpong. it was. overwhelming. haha... den our sec thai massage. tis time de person actu stepped on my back. i tot my back broke. haha. anw. david was massaged by a tranee!!!!!!!!!! called chichi!!!!!! haha~ for further details: go ask him

n at nite we played indian poker n tis dunno wad game haha~n de guys had to paint their nailsssss~! so on hor they all.

next day like nth much. haha at least i don remember sia. anw here's de picturesss(:
















































kk im tired from putting de pics one by one. haha~ still got alot of photos esp those taken of ying david n darren. bit spastic. LOL~ will do it when i feel like it. tata~