you beckoned to me
i went over n sat besides u.
i felt your body heat, felt your arm behind me.
it was a great feeling.

you noticed my habits
the little things in my life
things that i didnt even know
and i thought to myself
how great it would be if you were mine

you never fail to say yes
to every whims of mine
even when you were tired
drove me to eat
drove me out to play and watch movie
and you said
i really enjoyed myself

you took me out
protected me
when guys tried to talk to me.
i felt this is the sweetest thing someone has done for me

you gave me your pillow
which strangely felt warmer than mine.
that night i slept with a smile on my face.

you pour orange juice into my glass of vodka
when you thought i wasnt looking.
you know when im angry or sad
even when i said nothing.
you let me lie on your shoulder
when i felt tired.

i like the way you look when you drive
i like the way you throw your pillow on my face in the morning and ask me to bathe
i like the way i waited for you to come home from work
i like the way you love your family.

and this is my forbidden love.
because you are family
and im not supposed to feel this way towards you
i want to say i feel for you more than i feel for a brother
or a cousin,
how i wish we are unrelated.
and so it will stay
a forbidden love.